I Bought a Lululemon Bag and Now I’m Getting a Divorce.

Remember when I posted this on Instagram a couple weeks ago?
lululemon happy hatha hour bag instagram

Looking at the caption of the picture, well… I was half joking about the title of this post and half not.

If you follow me on my Instagram, Facebook page, Twitter or just know me in the real world, you know my big news. And you can pretty much guess now, why my good ol nememis depression came back a few months ago. And why I’ve been M.I.A. and haven’t written a blog post in quite some time.The husband and I have decided to get a divorce.

No, the bag itself did not lead to his decision, but it likely could have been one little piece of hay adding to the already tall stack. And, in its own way, it added to my stack, too. But this post is not the place to list his reasons or my reasons. It’s happening, it’s been decided, and as I’ve believed about everything major or minor in my life to date, it is happening for a reason. All I can say is he’s a damn good man, I’m lucky to have had him in my life for the past almost 10 years as my friend, boyfriend, fiance’, husband, estranged husband, and now, friend again. I wish nothing but the absolute best for him, always and forever. There is a frugal, more reserved, considerate, sweet, History Channel-watching woman out there for him, and there is an outgoing, gym buff, sarcastic, football obsessed alpha male out there for me. But a better friend to me than Mr. Steffen? I doubt there’s one out there. I’d like to think he feels the same about me. 🙂

In the state of North Cackalacky, you have to live separately for a year and one day before you can get a divorce. So, we had the big talk on September 4, and by October 5, I was moving into my own apartment in Chapel Hill. Seeing as how I know the Leasing Consultant very well (it’s me–duh!), I was able to take my pick of the available units. It’s all about who you know! Haa.
apartment

I’m all settled, unpacked and highly decorated. The place is very comfortable and very Cherie. Since I am now the sole provider for myself and money is beyond tight, I refurbished a lot of my old furniture to make it new again. Also, if you follow me on Instagram, you know I pretty much flooded my thread with home decor for the past month. A few people even questioned if I had transitioned from Cherie Runs This to Cherie Decorates This.
kitchen
beverage cart
living room couches
living room
psycho poster
bedroom

I almost started to believe I did. But assure you, I still RUN this; I’m still here. I just needed a little time away to take care of something things. Of me.
bitstrip gym

And that’s not to say that I wasn’t working out at all. Moving is a b*itch and my stuff is heavy. Haa. But to be honest, it wasn’t at the forefront of my mind. Fitness was still on my mind…in there somewhere–just not at the forefront as per usual. Eating? Yeah, I’ll just say it–my eating has been pretty much crap for two months. My clothes still fit, but not like I’m used to them fitting. I look the same I suppose, but upon closer glance, I can tell I’ve been eating crap. I knew it was time for me to get back to “my norm.” Clean eating, and especially my workouts. Sooooo picture the sadness when I realized I could no longer afford my gym membership. “But Cherie, you started this journey without having had stepped foot in the gym; you worked out at home. Can’t you do that again?”

I could. But not for everything. My neighbors downstairs wouldn’t be too pleased with my jumping around. Luckily I am surrounded by awesome places to run right outside my doorstep now (Chapel Hill is friggin’ gorgeous) and there is a great jungle gym next to my building for body resistance exercising. But y’all know how the gym found a special place in my heart. And the weights. Hardcore love.
ymca

I ran to my local YMCA on Saturday to see about getting a membership there. As soon as I hear back about that, hopefully this week, I’ll update you more on that!
steelers love

Anyhow, I’m still here, I’m still smiling, adjusting to the single life and I’m doing okay. This is a whole new journey and I’m going to take it day by day just like all the others I’ve traveled before. 🙂

Comments 9

  • Girl you are truly an inspiration!!!! God never brings us to a place & leaves us…I wish you God’s speed in all ur future endeavors. Yes I’m a true believer in everything happens for a reason!! Go Cherie & run this new life of your!!! Kudos

  • Take it one day at a time and things will get better. You’re a champ and you got it!!!
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  • Welcome to the club!
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  • Sending you love – you are a strong woman, so I don’t think I need to send you any more strength, but seriously, mad love. If anyone can get through it all, it’s you.
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  • Good luck with everything Cherie! My best friend is going through the same thing, she just separated from her husband and got her own place and it was the best thing for her. Good luck on your new journey!
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  • Welcome (back) to Chapel Hill!

  • Girl, you know I am all over you on IG but I still had so many chuckles reading this blog starting with the title…almost peed my pants…then Cherie Decorates This to Cherie Still Runs This…And then your gym journey, lady, you have come full circle and I do hope the Y turns out well for you. But in any case, you are in the south and I couldnt think of me doing ANYTHING strength related outdoors in these winter months in CT. And I do have a school playground less than a minute’s walk from me! Looking forward to your new journey and sending you positive energy, well wishes and new opportunities as you move onward and forward. Hugs. Love ya! GenuineFeedback

  • Oh Cherie, I am so sorry to hear this. As I have been through this too, it really DOES turn into something for the best, more often than not, and it sounds like you are already realizing that. I love that you are embracing, as much as you can, your space, your life, your individuality, now more than ever and take this time to shape the next stage in your journey. XO
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  • So glad you’re blogging again! I applaud you for your courage to get out of a situation that wasn’t making you happy. I believe everything happens for a reason & I know you’ll find your buff gym-goer out there!